12 weeks old
18 February 12
Elijah is now twelve weeks old — happy, healthy and getting chubby. He chuckles when tickled and trades smile for smile. It’s lovely to have him in our family.
Elijah finally smiles for the camera. He's very interactive with anyone who plays with him but usually turns serious for the camera.
Elijah is getting very strong on his tummy.
And he's starting to roll. Once he rolls off his tummy, Elijah is most upset at his new position.
Our Sudanese friend Hakima has a special song that she sings for Elijah, saying “Elijah is a boy, Elijah is a white boy. But Elijah is also a Dinka, he dances like a Dinka!”
As for me, I am still having so many dark days that I cannot maintain a positive perspective on our lifestyle, our family and even the present moment. Some outings distract me, others stretch me to almost-breaking point. But still I go on, as I must.
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1 · holly c. · 20 February 2012, 21:45
Elijah is so sweet!
I’m sorry to hear you are still having many dark days. I was hoping that they were behind you.
Hoping you’ll start having bright, sunny days and soon!
2 · Aunty Gwenda · 20 February 2012, 21:53
So sorry that black dog still has you, Lauren. See if you can get a hold of Bev Aisbetts book “Taming the Black Dog”
It is an easy read and has some great tips. You still on the chick peas and licorice?
Thinking of you.
3 · Benjamin Fisher · 20 February 2012, 23:32
Wow! He’s very cute! Doing very well…
4 · Missy · 21 February 2012, 00:53
Hoping things start looking brighter for you soon! (hugs)
5 · Jess · 21 February 2012, 03:43
So sorry to hear that things are still dark. I hope you find your way out of it soon.
6 · Kylie · 21 February 2012, 06:26
He is gorgeous Lauren. I’m sorry to hear you are still experiencing those days. I remember them all too well unfortunately.
Have you tried a good quality magnesium supplement, that definitely helped me.
7 · Erin J. · 21 February 2012, 15:47
Sorry to hear that you still have the “baby blues” as we call them here. I’ve been struggling and tearful a bit too, since getting back from Africa with Abi. It’s really tough some days. I’ll be sending some prayers your way. :)
8 · Marcia · 21 February 2012, 19:16
Oh wow he is so CUTE!!! what a lovely blessing you have there!
Im sorry to hear about the dark days – maybe finding a way to increase magnesium intake is a good idea iv heard it helps. Not sure if your family has a history of this though or how you felt with the others (obviously your situation and lifestyle is miles away from what it used to be though) do you think it would help to go back to your homebase for a while, settle rekindle and recoup? Especially with the weather changing (as iv heard it is??) Just a though – your in my thoughts daily though!
9 · Liz from America :) · 24 February 2012, 15:21
How did I miss this post??
He is angelic. What a blessing!
I’m sorry to hear about your struggles. I haven’t been following your blog long enough to know EXACTLY what you are talking about…..baby blues? postpartum depression? Anyway, I have EXTENSIVE personal experience with what you are speaking of, as do many other moms. I wish you and I could talk or email or something. Sometimes it helps to have someone who just knows, although you seem like a person who is surrounded by people who love you. :)
I emailed you some weeks ago so you have my email address, if you like. I also have entered it to add this comment, of course.
Bless you.
10 · Lori Starks · 24 February 2012, 16:06
Lauren,
You are an amazing woman and mother! I can just feel your energy and love for your husband and children and anyone else who crosses your path splash off the page when I read your words here.
I had the “dark days” of postpartum depression with our second one and even had postpartum psychosis with the first one. I remember the doctor asking me if I ever thought about killing myself and I said “Who hasn’t?”
I could not care less about anyone when I was in the midst of that and could not seem to wrap my brain around ever feeling loving again. But it will get better. As sure as the sun will rise and set, you will feel better any moment now. There is hope because Jesus is with you!
It is hard for anyone who does not know the pain and detachment of as you call it “black dog” to grasp the way it feels. But as you can see, there are so many mothers who have been there or are there right now—right with you.
You are living a beautiful life and we are thankful you share it with us here on this site! I check here often to see what the Fisher family is up to!
I am going to pray for you- that our heavenly Father will lift the haze of this black dog right off of you.
Blessed be the name of the Lord Jesus Christ!