Today, the last of the Rainbow Family left us. And as we sit here by ourselves, I feel rather flat. I haven’t adjusted to the new demand on my energy levels yet and am squabbling with David over small details.

Olly and Raz leaving, Rainbow Gathering, November 2011
The last two of the Rainbow Family that we say good-bye to are Olly and Raz who slept under our tarp last night.

We’re staying on this property at Glendon Brook to look after it in the owner’s absence. Lloyd needed someone to feed his dogs while he flew overseas, and we volunteered to fill in until someone else can relieve us.

The end of the Rainbow means that we’re left with several loads of community rubbish to take out, but first we need to get to town to buy diesel and supplies — which means we also need to pack up our camp-site. These tasks — which on good days we can handle as a matter of routine — seem huge to me, and the future looms as an unknown beast instead of a welcoming cloud.

I understand that it takes physical, emotional and spiritual energy to manifest godliness and keep a family running smoothly. Now that Elijah is born, my energy that was previously invested in our family is being used to care for him, and until I adjust, I have less to offer everyone else.

Consequently, I find it difficult to handle the children when they’re demanding things from me, even if it’s happy requests. I’m even having a hard time keeping a civil tone with David over something as routine as the washing up.

Thankfully, our children are happy to be here. They’ve been playing around the camp and in the puddles left by the rain. It’s wonderful to see how the older girls incorporate Delaney into their games. She’s only a little bit slower but copies their moves quite well, even if she doesn’t know exactly what is going on!

Elijah and Delaney, November 2011
Elijah dozes in the shade of the truck while Delaney reads a magazine next to him.

Our four daughters playing in the puddle, November 2011
The girls like playing in a deepish warm puddle left over from the rain. They collect and name tadpoles and splash each other with sand, water and mud.

When we miss our Rainbow Family, we can simply remember the good times. Here are some video highlights of our first Rainbow Gathering.

As I persevere through this period of adjustment, I know that I’ll emerge in godliness once more. Staying on a remote property has its disadvantages, but I’ll learn from this time, grow stronger in the process and will be a blessing to Lloyd who gave freely of his land for the Rainbow Family’s gathering.